Do you know what it’s like to be me? Very lonely. I see and feel things that others don’t. I don’t think I’m crazy but rather evolved. At the balcony I gain perspective. Sometimes I wish I couldn’t see through people because I wouldn’t have to feign ignorance. How many of us are out there?
It took me a little bit of time to realize that NOT wanting to belong to a group or a place is actually great thing.
Deconstructing all that was (lovingly or not) imposed on me from day one I entered “the world”, became my thing, my modus operandi, enabling me to go back and find that primal wisdom/knowledge I was talking about several times in Cyberspace as well. Trying to construct my own Afterlife is another thing that came with it.
Lonely? Only when I fall back, when clinging to silly mainstream constructs again. Anyway, you’re not alone, sugah.
I can certainly relate to those feelings. I’ve internalized a lot of my feelings and past hurts, but I’m doing my best to open up and to be more assertive.
It’s hard when you see through people. Sometimes I’m wrong and that makes me happy but I’m right too often. Now learning to trust that intuition and make decisions based on it.
I bet. It’s a skill I do need to work on since some parts of my social awareness have been underdeveloped.