Survival mode is supposed to be a phase that helps save your life.  It is not meant to be how you live.
Survival mode is supposed to be a phase that helps save your life. It is not meant to be how you live.

Letters from the State Hospital is a great blog. This reblogged post is about life in a US mental hospital. A staggering number of patients admitted to these hospitals commit suicide within an of month discharge. Most were not suicidal on admission. This post is a peek into why state mental hospitals end up killing patients instead of helping them.

Letters from the State Hospital

Therapy yesterday really threw me for a loop.

I’ve spent the whole day, so far, lying in bed reliving past trauma…numbing…losing myself…but surviving.

I’m so triggered right now, I can barely talk about anything. I keep drifting off mid-sentence.

This is so not normal…not like me at all.

My coloring books and crayons have mysteriously gone missing. It’s the only thing I had to keep me busy. I wish I had something to focus my mind on.

***

My underwear have gone missing, too. I arrived here with a dozen new pair…I now have only two.

Underwear?

I do my own laundry…how do underwear just disappear? I imagine to myself one if staff stealing underwear and taking them home to indulge their own sicknesses…

Ugh. *shutter in disgust**

***

No one is speaking to me much.

I feel like I’m drifting off to lala land…

I don’t seem to feel…

View original post 147 more words