I am so fucking sick of this world: The bullshit from all sides and the pretense that we live in some sort of democracy where everyone is treated equally or has equal access to basic justice. I am so fucking sick of the bullshit I hear coming from so-called pundits and experts who fortify the foundation of lies, denials and inequality.
In the eyes of those that benefit from the status quo, racism is non-existent. Black people are not denied basic access to decent housing or healthcare. Police brutality doesn’t exist. It is justified for cops to drive up to a playground and without communication and within seconds shoot and kill a 13-year-old kid playing with his toy gun.
This in a country where the NRA exalts the rights of white men and women to own guns but remains silent when such rights are denied to black men and women. Philandro Castile murdered for owning a gun legally. I am so fucking sick of this world of bullshit, racism and hypocrisy.
The real terrorism in this world is the status quo. It’s pervasive, nuanced, overt, structural and deeply embedded as it terrorizes and kills those who are different or refuse to swallow bullshit. It kills the soul and the heart follows as more people live dead. It denies targeted ethnic groups safety then blames them for their deaths. Denies those groups decent education, funneling them to prisons and forced servitude then label them lazy and violent.
I am so fucking sick of the status quo. I understand why someone tired of this world would say, I am going but not alone. That is a person defeated by a ruthless system where recourse or justice is an illusion, not accessible in this life or world.
Yes, I am so fucking sick of this world and I don’t give a fuck whether what I write is proper or not.
Fuck this world!!! #FUCKTHISWORLD #IAmSoFuckingSickOfThisWorld
Don’t you ‘love’ the church going Christians who step over bodies on the way to church? Makes one wonder how do they live with cognitive dissonance? Then it occurred to me while toying with a few on Facebook. They ignore the content and apply labels to the person.
Do you know why black people have been called angry for stating the truth or a fact? It’s because the truth is in conflict with the stories these church going Christians tell themselves as to not live with the pain of cognitive dissonance (or rather the guilt).
What is cognitive dissonance? It occurs when one’s beliefs/values and actions are discordant, in conflict. As when a church going Christian who believes in God and Jesus murders innocent people. With cognitive dissonance, the body and mind feel psychological pain that can be very intense and lead to a host of other medical, physical and social issues. We as humans cannot lead normal lives when there is cognitive dissonance.
In order to prevent cognitive dissonance, these god fearing individuals need to make their actions seem godly or rather justified. That is when they apply labels:
It’s acceptable to walk over the body of a “terrorist” or a “thug.” And it’s okay to ignore or even kill an “angry black person. ” It’s ‘saving a life’ to kill a doctor who performs abortions.
Next time church-going Christians attempt to justify an ungodly act or their lack of compassion, then label you for pointing out the hypocrisy, remember they need to do so for their peace of mind.
In addition, labelling is a learned behavior /strategy to detract from the facts.
What are your thoughts?
A nation that continues year after year to spend more money on military defense than on programs of social uplift is approaching spiritual doom. -Martin Luther King Jr.
US military is very powerful, it can nuke spiritual doom. Americans need not fear loss of the sentiments of humanity. We have the military! Look how well they have done so far. We have nothing to fear.
Like a recurrent toothache, I keep going back to this question. No matter how delighted I may be at the moment, my thoughts never venture far from this question.
Why keep going? Why, when it sucks or rather it becomes meaningless to move on or do anything? When your mind reaches this point, you do one of two things–give up or become desperate.
Is that when you become radicalized? When the past is filled with darkness and the future has no light.
Seems like life is a waste for some. Why even bother to endure so much pain only to end up dead or an expert at enduring pain? Guess it’s one of those cruel jokes called life.
To end on a positive note, most people not like me don’t feel this way. They keep fighting and never ever give up. Is it the fight that keeps them going? Or do they eventually see light?
The last 10 years flew by with me still single. Now I’m ready to find a mate but not so easy for this black woman. I live in NH. Will say no more, just leave the reader to wander between the lines and understand.
Saturday, I hastily completed a match.com profile and immediately felt like fresh meat, dinner for “potential” suitors. Well this is day 3 and so far, lots of likes but no interest on my part.
Why is it so hard to find a suitable man?
Partly because I faced a dilemma. I was married to a white man. My profession and location forced me to be surrounded by white men so I dated many white men. There wasn’t much diversity. A common question was, do I date black men? (Where tf are they to date?)
White men are wonderful! To really enjoy their world, I often gave up the simple and wonderful pleasures of my culture as well as my desire for diversity. A cultural difference existed and it took a while for me to appreciate.
Today, dating a black man would be a novelty, an adventure. I know that sounds ludicrous, but it’s true. And it’s no easy venture to find a suitable black man (or any man) for a woman like me.